Updated November 27, 2025: Feb 3/26
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The Problem
I get angry too easily and I stay angry too long. Sometimes I take it too far, always to my regret.
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(First published July 2018) Updated November 2024, October 2025, January 2026; Feb.3/26
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The Problem
I depend on my favourites among all sources of pleasure (food, drugs, competitions, touch, approval…) to distract me from huge tension triggered by my decisions.
Updated April 10-14, 2024, January 27, 2025, October 2025, January 31, 2026
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The Problem
I have to clean. It’s the last thing I want to do. Have to, want to. Enemies. The opposite ends of my conundrum. A conundrum is: a decision made difficult by opposite and equal choices; a dilemma.
Back story: I’m in the middle of a want-to activity, and the pleasure of momentum it creates. Then I remember I have to clean. Momentum lost. Ouch! I immediately check to see if I feel like doing the clean. Nope. Okay, I begin to search for something that creates that want-to/feel-like urge I just lost. This immediately makes me uptight; because I’m now being pulled back and forth in my head, between two opposing fears. On one side, fear of losing a want-to, say, any pleasure, by doing a have-to, clean. On the other side, fear of losing a have-to, clean, by doing a want-to, say, eat. I’m trying to have it both ways: feeling like doing something that can’t create feeling like doing something. The pull from each side creates wicked tension. I need to stop it. I need to get relief.
Updated April 15, 2024; January 19, 2025; October 10, 2025; November 27, 2025, Jan. 16/25; Feb.2/26
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The Problem
I almost panic when I have to transition without help from awake to asleep, from being in to going out, from looking to choosing, from one thing to another. As a kid, I would cry. Now I avoid, or go with distractions until I have to do it, or I try to do it with someone else.
Updated April 4, 2024; October 2025; November 27, 2025: January 31, 2025
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The Problem
I can’t sleep.
Last checked for editing: January 22/2025.
I’m always hearing I have to learn to be less anxious. But it’s all wrong. I was born this way. And I can’t unlearn it. So I don’t need to tell myself not to be afraid. That just makes it worse and adds guilt that I failed to stop the fear. Now I’m afraid of being afraid.
And there’s more.
Is:
- Is a sequence of statements I learn and repeat to myself whenever I’m anxious (anxiety is: more fear than I should feel for this situation, or it’s variant, fear that continues when the event that triggered the fear has passed).
- Is a way to turn my anxiety off in any moment, so I can be my true self in that moment.
- Is a way to change. If I do it a lot, I will stop doing a lot of the stuff I want to stop, and discover new stuff I should stop.
Isn’t:
Updated April 21, 2024; December 5, 2024; January 19, 2025; October 2025; Feb. 2/26
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The Problem
“I love deadlines. I love the whooshing noise they make as they go by.”
— Douglas Adams, Author of “A Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy”
— Douglas Adams, Author of “A Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy”
I procrastinate, which means I put off doing things. “Later baby. That’s my motto.” I even do it with the littlest things, like going to bed. It has ruined my life in so many ways.
Updated April 20, 2024, and December 18, 2024, November 27, 2025; Feb. 1/26
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The Problem
I try to change your mind out of your lazy consideration of me. And I fail. And it hurts a lot.
The above problem unpacked
Updated November 27, 2024; December 2, 2025; Feb.1/26
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The Problem
Whenever I feel happy, I immediately find fault with it/second guess it/attack it/oppose it.
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